Frustration with myself

I'm struggling this week. I stayed on plan yesterday (whoa, big accomplishment). This weekend was awful. I found myself frustrated that I had gained after such a perfect week. Even though I have several reasons why the scale may have gone up instead of down all of which are legitimate possibilities, when it came time to eat dinner with my husband, I threw in the towel.

I ate and ate this weekend and feel really crummy about it. At the time I said to myself, doesn't matter what I do, I gain if I'm perfect and lose when I'm not. I know that this is a horrible attitude and am trying really hard to get back on track and stay there, hence my almost perfect day yesterday.

I want to try cutting out sweets. Replace them with fruit. This is EXTREMELY hard for me and may be a bit much to commit to considering how I can't even seem to stay on track lately. I guess I should continue to focus on staying within points and continuing to lose.

I fear another gain this week and I am feel a little resentful of other people's weight loss journeys. It's a jealousy thing. They're losing and I'm not. It's my own fault, not theirs. I'm just frustrated.

Anyway I got back on track yesterday and plan to stay there through weigh in Thursday night, and then of course continue on plan next week. I just hope I can do enough damage control in the next couple of days to offset the weekend. I'll be heading to the gym tonight for a 2 hour Biggest Loser workout.

Sorry this post is kind of all over the place, just needed to get my frustrations out and commit to myself and you all that I will continue losing weight, even if this week doesn't show it.